Disciples, Apostles, and Saints!
Starting next week, I’ll be going on vacation for a few weeks. I know the time away will be rejuvenating for me and our family as we spend time together.
I will confess that going away is always hard for me. Some of it is the ingrained desire to see things through and worrying about how everything will go while I’m gone.
This sense: of worrying of what could go wrong without me: is natural to leadership, for sure. And it is very common in the church. It is, however, also not a very trusting posture, is it? And what is trust but an aspect of faith?
It is hard to admit in writing that I don’t trust. Because that isn’t true. At least not in that all-or-nothing way we like to talk about it. But it is hard to admit that I trust with my head and then my gut starts to get all rumbly and my heart gets all anxious.
How does my belief about trust align with my action?
Well, I often find myself needing to step in and help. Even when it isn’t necessary. Like a parent with a child, not wanting them to ever get hurt.
For me, taking vacation is a bit like letting go. Trusting that everything will run. Knowing everyone is capable. And believing the best in every one of you. As I do.